He Loves Me Not - Committee
I am the one who is loved not by those I love. I am attracted to people that cannot love me back. I fall in love with men I cannot have. I am the one who is perpetually safe, from both hurt and the possibility of real intimacy. I am the one who loves in pain.
What do you have to give me?
I give you protection from harm. I guarantee you will never be touched except in your dreams. I promise that never again will you be hurt or taken advantage of. I am careful in choosing the men with whom you will never have a relationship. I also give you the insight into the workings of your subconscious when it comes to love and relationships. Through me, you can come to know yourself more intimately, and what type of people you are attracted to. I give you the beginnings of practice – a small step into the land of the mere possibility of being with someone. I give you fantasies which calm and excite you, which stop you thinking about the pain you are feeling inside. I give you tension and frustration, but this is the price to pay for safety and distraction.
What do you want from me?
I want you to honor me as a valuable part of your life with meaning and purpose attached, rather than hating and despising me and trying to push me away. I want you to listen to me, to flow with me, to accept me - even come to love me as a part of yourself that has a solid purpose. I want you to no longer be ashamed of me as I am here for a very good reason. I also want you to have a true intimate relationship with a man.
How will I remember?
He loves me, he loves me not. Flower petals. Daydreaming while staring at the stars.
Shadow side:
I prevent you from ever getting close to anyone. I guarantee you will only ever have relationships in your head. The eternal virgin.
Core meaning, essence?
Loving others who can’t love me back keeps me safe. Accept it’s purpose, but don’t resign yourself to it forever.
The Healer - Council
I am the one who heals. Rainbow light streams from the universe into my body and through my hands. I am a channel for the life force, chi, ki, prana, love... I am the one who holds energy and passes it on. I am the one who channels Reiki healing energy. I am the master who heals. I am the one whose hands become hot and pulsing, whose fingers tingle, whose palms feel magnetic. I am the one whose first instinct is to touch – to lay on hands – where it hurts. I am a healer.
What do you have to give me?
I give you the clarity and grounding to be a vessel for love and light. I allow you to pass on Reiki. I give you the openness and willingness to help others and yourself by moving energy through yourself.
What do you want from me?
I want you to extend your healing to include animals, objects and other people – not just yourself. You already know how to do this on a subconscious level, you do not need to be taught, you know it – you’ve only forgotten you know. I want you to practice and practice – all energy, all healing is beneficial, even if only to the one channeling it.
How will I remember?
Rainbow. Dragonflies. Snakes.
Shadow side:
Getting lost in power – the healing does not come from you, it comes through you, although it is also a part of you.
Core essence, meaning?
Healing heals the healer too.
The Devil On My Shoulder - Committee
I am the one who holds the darkness within. I am the one who unleashes the shadows that gnaw at your ear, the thoughts and beliefs which belittle you and criticize you. I am the devil on your shoulder, whispering old tapes and lies into your head, telling you how unworthy you are. I am the reason you hate yourself. I am the one who is your inner critical voice. Just a spot of me can turn your world upside down, leading to overwhelming darkness. I am the one who keeps you trapped and sad, unable to fly. I turn ‘balance’ on it’s head and nibble away at your self esteem, one ‘failure’ at a time.
What do you have to give me?
I give you fear, uncertainty and unwillingness to try. I give you low self esteem and self loathing.
What do you want from me?
I want you to acknowledge your flaws and take responsibility for them. In truth, I want you to see that life is not black and white. I am the black side of the yin yang symbol. I want you to see that one does not exist without the other and that both can be blended to make many shades of grey. It is only without balance that the black – or white – takes hold, and the greys are lost. I am a symptom of this imbalance.
How will I remember?
A trapped butterfly. Yin Yang.
Core meaning, essence:
Balance stops the darkness taking over so completely. Life and people are not black and white.
The Green Woman - Council
I am the one who shakes things up.
Expect the unexpected.
I am surprising, startling and interrupting.
Dance with me, spin the wheel, crack a smile!
I am a fool if I think I can predict life.
It might be good, it might be bad, but you certainly wont expect it.
Ignore me at your peril.
What do you have to give me?
I warn you of coming change and not to trust your eyes. I give you the unexpected and unusual. I give you humour to laugh at yourself.
What do you want from me?
I want you to ignore society's 'SHOULDS' and dare to be different. Don't take yourself so seriously. Remember nothing is permanent - everything ends. Life is sometimes a game of chance.
Core meaning:
"Let's Doh-See-Doh now." (From 'Square Dance' by Eminem)
Wake up!
Are you ready to rumble?!!!
The Magickal One - Committee
I am the one who believes in magick. I believe there is more to life than what we can perceive with our 5 senses. I am the one who senses dragons and believes in unicorns. I match my wishes, prayers and spells to the phase of the moon. I am the one who sees fairies in nature, who looks deep into tiny crevices and atop moss for the little people. I see a world that isn’t there. I am the one who believes everything on earth has a spirit. I am the one who is magickal.
What do you have to give me?
I give you a rich inner life , a rich imagination. I allow you to see on the inside what exists on the outside, though rarely seen. I give you sight. I give you the gift of making connections and associations in life and the universe, allowing you to more completely center yourself within the arms of the goddess spirit. My five pointed star encourages balance between Earth, Air, Fire, Water AND Spirit. I give you magick. That excited feeling deep in the pit of your stomach that you once had as a child when viewing the world around you. I give you the excitement of discovery.
What do you want from me?
I want you to reclaim the pentagram – it is your symbol and reflects your lesson in life. Often you focus on the top of the star, Spirit, forgetting that you are, in fact currently on Planet Earth and that the world and your physical life is just as important as any lofty spirituality you might seek.
How will I remember:
The pentagram – the five pointed star.
Shadow side:
Imbalance through assuming Spirit is more important than Earth, Air, Water and Fire.
Core meaning, essence:
The universe is vast, wondrous and magickal, but so am I – come back to earth – find the balance.
Judy - Community
I am the one who is calm and centred and grounded. I am the one who gives great big, loving bear hugs and warm smiles. I am the one who convinces you of your inner wonder woman. I believe in you and I wish only the best, most wonderful things for you. I am the one who is protective of those I care for like a mother. I am the one who understands just by being with you – no need for speech. I am the one who sees the subconscious connections beneath the surface of who you are or how you are feeling. I am the one who comes alive in the water. I am the one who helps you re-birth yourself. I encourage and motivate you, gently pushing, sometimes not so gently.
What do you have to give me?
I give you encouragement, motivation, inspiration and possibility. I give you warmth and love and smiles and hugs. I give you an anchor – a safe place to come back to earth and experience being alive.
What do you want from me?
I want you to live life fully. I want you to experience the fun and laughter life has to offer – as well as the pain sometimes, for the pain is there to lead us back to the light. There cannot be light without darkness. I want you to leap out of the drab black and white world and into colour – ALL colours. Live life. Have fun. Don’t worry so much. Don’t take yourself so seriously.
How will I remember?
Blue water. Bears. Wonder Woman.
Shadow side:
I can care so much about people at times that I cross boundaries trying to help them, but it’s only because I care, although, I never do damage. I can be over-protective.
Core meaning, essence?
Come back to earth and live the life you’ve always dreamt of living – you’re worth it.
Let Down - Committee
I am the one who is let down again and again.
I don't expect things to go right because I'm always disappointed.
I am the one who doesn't get excited anymore because life always lets me down.
I am tired of trying.
What do you have to give me?
I give you protection from being disappointed, hurt or from making a fool of yourself. I give you recognition of when you are at the end of your tether and it's time for change.
What do you want from me?
I want you to be realistic. I want you to stop setting your expectations so high that you are always let down. I want you to find a balance between being realistic and looking forward to things. I want you to stop blaming life for making you miserable. I want you to stop trying to be one of those girls at the Tomato Festival Princess Competition. I want you to be aware enough of where you are going that you don't fall into the traps you are setting for yourself.
Core meaning:
If you expect to be let down, you will be. I set MYSELF up for disappointment.
The Fool - Council
I am the one who shakes things up.
Expect the unexpected.
I am surprising, startling and interrupting.
Dance with me, spin the wheel, crack a smile!
I am a fool if I think I can predict life.
It might be good, it might be bad, but you certainly wont expect it.
Ignore me at your peril.
What do you have to give me?
I warn you of coming change and not to trust your eyes. I give you the unexpected and unusual. I give you humour to laugh at yourself.
What do you want from me?
I want you to ignore society's 'SHOULDS' and dare to be different. Don't take yourself so seriously. Remember nothing is permanent - everything ends. Life is sometimes a game of chance.
Core meaning:
"Let's Doh-See-Doh now." (From 'Square Dance' by Eminem)
Wake up!
Are you ready to rumble?!!!
Watched - Committee
I am the one who is being watched.
I am who I think others expect me to be.
I am stifled by the watching eyes around me.
I am the one who judges myself as I think others would judge me.
What do you have to give me?
I give you a chance at dress rehearsal. But I also give you discomfort in the gaze of others.
What do you want from me?
I want you to relax and accept that your true self is enough. You are your own harshest judge. It is not others that are watching you - it is yourself.
Core meaning:
It is not others - but you - who watches and judges yourself.
Frozen Fear - Committee
I am the one who is stuck.
I refuse to move because I am afraid.
I stay where I am because it's familiar.
I am the one who is afraid of letting go.
I am the one who fears surrender.
What do you have to give me?
Strength and determination, but this must be combined with courage.
What do you want from me?
Acceptance. Release. Find the peace at the core of this situation. Acknowledge me, but do not judge me.
Core meaning:
I'm scared. I'm not going anywhere!
Opal - Community
I am the one who is faithful, loyal and committed.
I am the one who is full of love and support, even though I may not always show it.
What do you have to give me?
I can give you the simple joy of sunshine and honouring your need to be solitary and alone. I bring you opportunities to learn the lessons of death, letting go and following your gut instinct with things unsaid.
What do you want from me?
Be willing to listen to your gut instinct. It is your compass and will guide you home safely every time. Surrender to those parts of your life which are destiny - you have pre-chosen them.
Core meaning:
Follow your inner compass. Seek the sun.
The Creator - Council
I am the one who imagines, creates, flows.
The fabric of my being exists without parallel.
I am the one who weaves the fabric of life into the masterpiece it is.
What do you have to give me?
I give you peace through the creation of your soul lessons. I give you the inspiration to chose which threads to weave into your life.
What do you want from me?
I want you to have temperance. I want you to see and hear my inspiration. I want you to notice the synchronicity in your life.
Core meaning:
Weave the masterpiece that is your life.
Angelina Jolie - Community
I am the one who has grown through my pain to become queen of my life.
I am a mother to my family and to the world.
What do you have to give me?
I give you a growing sense of peace and acceptance of your individual journey. I give you hope - a light at the end of the tunnel. I give you wings that you may fly from your difficult beginnings. I remind you that by using your resources wisely, everyone can change the world.
What do you want from me?
Grab the controls! Don't be afraid to make mistakes - make as many mistakes as possible! I want you to savour life and all it has to offer. I want you to rise above your pain and pilot your life. Be your own mother. Be authentic. Keep growing. Recognise the pain as merely a stepping stone.
Core meaning:
Grow through your pain. Pilot your life. Change the world.
Root Chakra Totem - Horse
"Be gentle. Great strength is gentle."